As of tomorrow, I will only have 7 months left of my 20s. Really? Seven months? What happened to the last 10 years? It's crazy how quickly it flew by. Of course, for most of my 20s, I was raising a very precocious little boy.
I think it really hit me last week when I celebrated a friend turning 30 with him and his wife - well, not really "celebrated," since he doesn't do that, but we all talked for about 30 minutes or so. Every year, his birthday is usually a reminder to me that mine will follow all too quickly. It's so funny when I think about it. Aging doesn't seem to bother him, or other guys I know, very much at all. For my son, celebrating a birthday means he is that much closer to the oh-so-elusive concept of being "grown up." Yet, for me and many of my female friends, aging means our metabolism slows down, gravity takes its toll on our front- and back-sides, and our hormones go crazier than ever before. Gee, I wonder why women stress over aging.
I hope in my 30s, I can learn to celebrate life more. I don't want to fear aging. I will definitely admit that the biggest reason I am afraid of getting old is because I am uncomfortable with the idea of death. I shouldn't be, as a woman of faith, but I am nonetheless. I haven't lost very many people in my life at all, but that is another unfortunate side effect I am experiencing from age. I am starting to realize that I will, at some point, lose family members and friends. *shudders* I dread the thought...
Anyhow, as I was saying, I want to start to celebrate life more. I want to LIVE, and I mean really LIVE. I know I added a list of things I want to do in my 30s, but I just have to add a couple of things I want to do before I turn 30:
1. Learn Italian and Spanish, or at least learn enough to be lightly conversational.
2. Finish my Associate's degree. Since my last blog post, I found out that the Department of Education decided not to fund the Associate of Arts in General Studies. As a result, I had to switch my degree program to the Associate of Arts in Business Administration. So I have several business courses to take before I complete my online degree. I am trying to look at this as a positive... It gives me time to finalize my decision on what I will major in for my Bachelor's (details to come).
